krizza and happiness

ANDREI and her 6th year. ;) 'Such a big miracle in such a little girl' :) This is another creative activity for me after I had fun with Grant last week. Meet Andrei in her outdoor photo shoot for her 6th birthday. She's a little bit shy but I tried my best to capture everything.

  RIEL GRANT turns TWO A child's early years should never be taken for granted. It is the time that a good foundation should be established by his or her parents. Grant is now turning two years old. He's a little naughty and playful, but as young as he is, you can really observe how enthusiastic, smart and bubbly he was.  This is another chance for me to expand my creativity. I had the hard time in doing this photo shoot because of Grant's playful behavior, but I think I'm satisfied with this output. Even though I'm bombarded with my working hours plus the hardship I am currently taking in my graduate school, I am happy to have a quality time for this leisure. 

Me: Do you love me? Boy: What kind of question is that? Me: I just wanted to know your side because I am here loving you so much. Me: Do you love me? Boy: I only like you and besides, like is better than nothing. Me: But I love you.      I came home from work very tired and hungry, but the most upsetting thing that happened was when I read a message from a past lover asking if I'm okay. Well, I definitely answered, 'Yes, of course!'. I'm just kidding, I answered only 'Yes' with a sad face.      Actually, I am really tired right now, especially that I just have a long working hours and what I got was a very late dinner and reminiscing the heartaches makes me more exhausted than ever. I am trying to move forward now as I've written from my last blog post. I am also trying not to allow myself to be drowned and beaten by the hurtful feelings. But why am I so sad tonight? Is it because I am physically tired or am I emotionally worn-out?      I d

Written July 14, 2015 . This is the movie wallpaper of Wild. I just finished watching the movie 'Wild'. I chose to watch this movie tonight because of Reese Witherspoon and she's one of my favorite. And also, I didn't have a lot of things to do right now, so I prefer a movie over a book. I thought this was all about hiking because that was the idea I got in the trailer. I was wrong. Somehow, as the story continues, it illustrates how strong a woman can face life alone in the dessert and how she survives such crisis. It also depicts what a woman can do in order to move on and surpass her troubles. As a woman, myself, the movie helps me to become more courageous enough in dealing with my own problems. There was a line that catches my attention, 'Problems don't stay problems, they turn into something else.' It can be our life's motto especially if we are losing hope in our situation. This is Cheryl Strayed. Cheryl Strayed and Reese Wither

'Real love isn’t a fairy tale, but it’s so worth it, and possible if we work for it.' -Lori Deschene Sometimes, I can't avoid to think that having a relationship is a need in my life right now. Last night, I had a talk with a friend who unexpectedly gave me an advice that I think it's worth to consider. He said that being single in our moment is way better than having a relationship by demand. He chose to be single because he wanted that relationship to end up in marriage. There is no use of finding a girlfriend or a boyfriend right now if your only reason is to entertain your empty life. Anyway, he's right. I can see that he is happy, even though he said that his love life is so plain like vanilla. I am single for 3 years now. In this long time that I have, I had the most rocky road adventure in finding for the right one and I always ended up with sad goodbyes. I'm a hopeless romantic that's why I easily fall in love in the wrong guy. I have to

     I already said my goodbyes repeatedly years ago, but when he came back without a warning, the feelings have suddenly immersed and I am here troubled with doubts of what would be the right thing to do.       Yes, I dearly love him after all these years, but as far as we go through this journey, we can’t keep ourselves steady and stable in securing a commitment. I don’t know if this is just a minor feeling, but I am hurt already in the inside especially on his silent treatment and ignoring behavior.       I love him that I almost have given everything just to keep him in my life. Love can really make us crazy and because of these raging feelings, I can do things without even thinking clearly. Now that he’s far away from me, I am keeping myself secure and somehow ready for anything that will happen sooner.       I should be contented with what I only have in my life. Honestly, this is what I considered my downfall. I can’t keep an intimate relationship. Yes, I should not be in

     Despite of our schedules, there will always come a time that we wanted to break free and relax for awhile. This is a reality for those who are working full time. We can experience burnout and we can’t avoid it. Yesterday, I was given the chance to watch a movie. Actually, I didn’t watch the trailer and I can’t remember why I downloaded it. Yet, I was lucky enough that I chose ‘Up in the Air’ which George Clooney was the actor behind Ryan Bingham, the lead character who travels a lot. The story was about a man who was connected to an agency who offers a strategy packet services for those company who ended up to a massive eviction of their employees.       ‘Hearing the word ‘you’ve been let go’ is not easy. Change is always scary, but consider the following. Anybody who ever built an empire or changed the world sat where you are now.’          What I love is his travel experiences and the advancement he gets as a regular customer in American Airlines and I am talking

The festive evening brought by the warm embrace of the people of South Cotabato during T'nalak Festival.     First of all,  I am not the type of a person who loves outdoors . Not that my parents are protective, but it is really my choice. I don’t know what had happened to me, but I enjoyed exploring this year’s festival . I love the street and the crowd that makes the party more alive. Even though, I can’t meet my schedules on time, I am not bothered and my guilt feeling  of being lazy is not working either. :) As I walked on the street, I am so much contented with what I am seeing. People have different ways of celebrating this festival. I saw family that shares their authentic smiles, friends who are enjoying the party and couple who appreciates some perfect view. My camera also agreed with me and you can see it on my output. I can still have the hard time in choosing the best setting in the manual mode, but I believe tha

‘Life changing moments may happen unexpectedly. It may have a good or bad result, but the feeling of self-fulfillment is priceless.’ I am  a 23 years of age at this moment. In this existence, I have been through problems, anxieties, insecurities and etc, because of these, it molded the person who I become right now. There were certain times that I thought about giving up.  I was brought up as a Catholic. I went to Catholic schools since elementary up to college. Every Sunday, as a family, we make sure that we attend mass and celebrate it. However, life had given me a time wherein my faith is in doubt and that pushes me to question how strong enough I am to hold on. Despite of this, I still love God. I can’t contain it, but I am still thankful that He has been there for me, no matter what will happen. These past few months of my life have been a roller coaster ride. There are episodes wherein I feel so depressed and alone. I have committed mortal sins that until now, it