krizza and happiness

'Real love isn’t a fairy tale, but it’s so worth it, and possible if we work for it.' -Lori Deschene Sometimes, I can't avoid to think that having a relationship is a need in my life right now. Last night, I had a talk with a friend who unexpectedly gave me an advice that I think it's worth to consider. He said that being single in our moment is way better than having a relationship by demand. He chose to be single because he wanted that relationship to end up in marriage. There is no use of finding a girlfriend or a boyfriend right now if your only reason is to entertain your empty life. Anyway, he's right. I can see that he is happy, even though he said that his love life is so plain like vanilla. I am single for 3 years now. In this long time that I have, I had the most rocky road adventure in finding for the right one and I always ended up with sad goodbyes. I'm a hopeless romantic that's why I easily fall in love in the wrong guy. I have to

     I already said my goodbyes repeatedly years ago, but when he came back without a warning, the feelings have suddenly immersed and I am here troubled with doubts of what would be the right thing to do.       Yes, I dearly love him after all these years, but as far as we go through this journey, we can’t keep ourselves steady and stable in securing a commitment. I don’t know if this is just a minor feeling, but I am hurt already in the inside especially on his silent treatment and ignoring behavior.       I love him that I almost have given everything just to keep him in my life. Love can really make us crazy and because of these raging feelings, I can do things without even thinking clearly. Now that he’s far away from me, I am keeping myself secure and somehow ready for anything that will happen sooner.       I should be contented with what I only have in my life. Honestly, this is what I considered my downfall. I can’t keep an intimate relationship. Yes, I should not be in