Last Friday Night.

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Me: Do you love me?
Boy: What kind of question is that?
Me: I just wanted to know your side because I am here loving you so much.

Me: Do you love me?
Boy: I only like you and besides, like is better than nothing.
Me: But I love you.



     I came home from work very tired and hungry, but the most upsetting thing that happened was when I read a message from a past lover asking if I'm okay. Well, I definitely answered, 'Yes, of course!'. I'm just kidding, I answered only 'Yes' with a sad face.

     Actually, I am really tired right now, especially that I just have a long working hours and what I got was a very late dinner and reminiscing the heartaches makes me more exhausted than ever. I am trying to move forward now as I've written from my last blog post. I am also trying not to allow myself to be drowned and beaten by the hurtful feelings. But why am I so sad tonight? Is it because I am physically tired or am I emotionally worn-out?

     I don't know why this is happening. Did I allow this to happen to myself?

I am really tired.

I am already exhausted.

I want to move on now.

When will be the endpoint of this?



     I think I am also guilty of why this is happening in my life right now. I can really say that I am an easy girl. I am hopeless romantic since high school. What I've always been dreaming was about a perfect lover and our love story. I don't know why I grew up always thinking about love.

     I am in love with love. I wanted to love someone and I loved the feeling of being loved. I have my complete family and friends who are willing to comfort me, but I can't let myself be contented of what was only given for me.

     I know that moving forward with my life without any grudges is the only way I take a step further. I can still look back on my past, but I should not let regrets cover my present. It will always be a long way to establish a mindset that there will never be 'us' anymore. Closing the chapter of him and writing the next one are the two things I must do today. This will take me a lot of time, but in the end, I know, I will not have regrets to consider anymore.



'Thank you Yat for everything. It has been a long journey with you.'

'We have our own reasons and I think I'm keeping mine permanently.'

'I loved you more than I could give before. I was happy loving you so heartedly. Time can change our story and maybe our ending is not the way we wanted to happen'
     Our life story is different from each other. We have distinct events and a lot of priorities to consider. It is not about finding love everyday, rather the waiting part should be anticipated for we will not know when will be the right time of meeting him or her finally.

     God is writing our stories. Let's have faith, trust, and hope to Him, for He will give us what we really deserve in our lives. With God, everything is possible.

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