krizza and happiness

T I M E   O F F I have lit a candle one hour ago. Finally, at this moment, I have to put out the candle. I was actually hoping that at some point I can extend its capacity, but I am not capable of doing it. Unfortunately, I just have one candle. Being a book lover can help me to get through with my loneliness. I am in a sober mood right now. I can’t convince my friends that I am actually doing it. Yes, I am honest with myself. I disposed every guy I am into.  This sober mood was actually an advice from my high school classmate as I’ve told her that I am really struggling in my relationships. (‘Relationships’ because I’ve been with a lot of guys and I am not used in counting them anyway.) I keep holding on the past and I left messy things on the present. This is what I have accustomed from the time being I’ve learned how to love.          I am always wishing for my one true love. I’m a hopeless romantic. I keep on thinking what...

'Real love isn’t a fairy tale, but it’s so worth it, and possible if we work for it.' -Lori Deschene Sometimes, I can't avoid to think that having a relationship is a need in my life right now. Last night, I had a talk with a friend who unexpectedly gave me an advice that I think it's worth to consider. He said that being single in our moment is way better than having a relationship by demand. He chose to be single because he wanted that relationship to end up in marriage. There is no use of finding a girlfriend or a boyfriend right now if your only reason is to entertain your empty life. Anyway, he's right. I can see that he is happy, even though he said that his love life is so plain like vanilla. I am single for 3 years now. In this long time that I have, I had the most rocky road adventure in finding for the right one and I always ended up with sad goodbyes. I'm a hopeless romantic that's why I easily fall in love in the wrong guy. I have to ...