krizza and happiness

I received this simple token from my junior nurse the other day that made me happy as her senior and mentor. Working in the health care system seems so impossible to never look out for some glitches like work pressure, endless complaints, and horrible duty schedule, especially if you’re a nurse.  Well, being a nurse for four years was a tough experience already, but I still considered myself as a beginner. This note had given me an impression that I am more of a mentor now. I should be proud of this. However, I was thinking about writing my thoughts about this realization. One of my research proposals for my thesis was about nurse bullying. It had pushed me to include this selection to find some comparative study on the hospital violence among nurses in public and private institution. My personal experiences had given me enough reasons to think about it today. Did I experience nurse bullying? Or am I the bully already? Some people I’ve known in my profession would rath...

‘Right now, I am in love with my ex-boyfriend whom our relationship end up four years ago.’ Yeah. It’s a big and rush statement. Remember I’ve written a blog post last month that I don’t want to fall in love right now. But, here I am, enjoying the cuddling moments with the guy who broke my heart four years ago.  Everything was not planned. I don’t know with him, but when we met up last week, a spark between us ignited and it became the lush of a new relationship, of a second chance. I’m still in doubt about this set up. I am unsure of what will happen in the next few days. I have established my goals in life before he came back. I am still looking and aiming for that to happen. Well, I should not think this seriously. I need to go on, but I don’t want to reverse the decision of having him again in my life. Life can be so unexpected at times. It might give you surprises and even an opportunity to be linked in a wondrous luck. He’s the last guy I’ve been in ...

T I M E   O F F I have lit a candle one hour ago. Finally, at this moment, I have to put out the candle. I was actually hoping that at some point I can extend its capacity, but I am not capable of doing it. Unfortunately, I just have one candle. Being a book lover can help me to get through with my loneliness. I am in a sober mood right now. I can’t convince my friends that I am actually doing it. Yes, I am honest with myself. I disposed every guy I am into.  This sober mood was actually an advice from my high school classmate as I’ve told her that I am really struggling in my relationships. (‘Relationships’ because I’ve been with a lot of guys and I am not used in counting them anyway.) I keep holding on the past and I left messy things on the present. This is what I have accustomed from the time being I’ve learned how to love.          I am always wishing for my one true love. I’m a hopeless romantic. I keep on thinking what...

Written July 14, 2015 . This is the movie wallpaper of Wild. I just finished watching the movie 'Wild'. I chose to watch this movie tonight because of Reese Witherspoon and she's one of my favorite. And also, I didn't have a lot of things to do right now, so I prefer a movie over a book. I thought this was all about hiking because that was the idea I got in the trailer. I was wrong. Somehow, as the story continues, it illustrates how strong a woman can face life alone in the dessert and how she survives such crisis. It also depicts what a woman can do in order to move on and surpass her troubles. As a woman, myself, the movie helps me to become more courageous enough in dealing with my own problems. There was a line that catches my attention, 'Problems don't stay problems, they turn into something else.' It can be our life's motto especially if we are losing hope in our situation. This is Cheryl Strayed. Cheryl Strayed and Reese Wither...

     Despite of our schedules, there will always come a time that we wanted to break free and relax for awhile. This is a reality for those who are working full time. We can experience burnout and we can’t avoid it. Yesterday, I was given the chance to watch a movie. Actually, I didn’t watch the trailer and I can’t remember why I downloaded it. Yet, I was lucky enough that I chose ‘Up in the Air’ which George Clooney was the actor behind Ryan Bingham, the lead character who travels a lot. The story was about a man who was connected to an agency who offers a strategy packet services for those company who ended up to a massive eviction of their employees.       ‘Hearing the word ‘you’ve been let go’ is not easy. Change is always scary, but consider the following. Anybody who ever built an empire or changed the world sat where you are now.’          What I love is his travel experiences and the advancement he g...