SELFIE

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         I am not really a fun of ‘selfies’, but while I was on the bus going home, I found it enjoyable to take pictures of myself. It gives me the feeling that I’m beautiful.
       Life is also about taking pictures. It depends on the photographer’s view on the quality and even on the timing of the shutter. The photographer is us. Everything in our lives is dependent on our hands. Some pictures have meanings, and we tend to treasure it even if years had already passed. My life at this moment is somehow struggling towards happiness. As I mature, I found happiness as my real treasure. It is not about on our material things, but it is the self-fulfillment that we achieved within ourselves.
       My life is not perfect. No one is perfect, isn’t it?
       I am still struggling every day. There are times that even putting a smile on my face is so hard that I can’t resist but to cry instead. I am trying to define myself on my own contentment especially on the only the things I have. Working everyday means trying to live my life in this stable situation. Somehow, after all the hardships I’ve gone through, it helps me to start planning my life accurately. I want to achieve this and that. Sometimes, it’s so demanding, but I should work for this. Let alone the busy life enjoy my current status. It’s my choice and lately, I can really feel the independence. It is not easy and it takes a lot of effort. Positivism will always be my motto and no one can stop me to embrace it. 


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