Uncertain

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         The moment I knew that I become a better person was when I was able to put a smile into other people’s faces and I found a deep happiness within me. However, I have uncertainties in my life that can help me think and further influence my everyday decisions.
         
         Right now, I am imagining myself on a cliff of a mountain, intimately embracing the scenic view of the nature. The sound of the birds keeps on giving me a continuous relaxation. The cold breeze allows my body to generate its heat.


          This imagination give me the feeling that I am comfortable of being alone. I’ve learned how to appreciate the essence of being in a solitude. In the past few years, I keep on stumbling in my relationships. I am still single for four years already, because I’ve let myself be played by men with all my consent. I’ve let it happen because of my own will. I was exposed on different scenarios wherein I was fooled and became frustrated with the idea of finding my one true love.
         
          ‘I wanted to say sorry to all the guys I’ve left with a broken heart. Everything happens for a reason. I'm sorry I just find being single is the best thing that I could do in my life right now. I have to find myself, my happiness, and I know that this is not even yet the right time.’

          After all the experiences that I’ve been through, I am still thankful for I can able to look back today without any grudges. In fact, I took it as a learning step for me to realize things more clearly. I cannot have these realizations if I haven’t experience all the wrong doings I’ve done in the past.  


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